Thoughts about Turning Thirty

Today is my thirtieth birthday

. It is a big milestone, so I have been giving it a lot of thought recently.

This is the first time I have been dreading a birthday. Younger ages are exciting: Learning to drive at sixteen, becoming an adult at eighteen, drinking alcohol at twenty-one. But I feel anxiety about turning thirty. My biggest worry is that people will see me differently because I’m not in my twenties anymore. At twenty-nine, you are still in a group with twenty years olds. At thirty, you are suddenly in a group with thirty-nine year olds.

It is a little hard to believe that I am this old. Last year, I was a teen summer camp instructor and realized that I was twice as old as some of the kids.

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