no energy today 🥲😓 my assistant store manager sent me home earlier, because I looked very sad and troubled. been stressed out lately and cried a lot :( lot of different things happening at the same time and I do not know how to handle it appropriately. have neglected a lot of friends, due to me feeling down and stressed out. having depression is already difficult, but then little inconveniences just make things 10x more difficult for me. i’m still a little kid at heart, who needs to learn how to deal with negative emotions. sadly, I grew up in a household where expressing sadness was an unwanted and unpleasant sight. so I had to learn to shut it in, which resulted in me never telling my parents what was going on. same goes for the present time. nowadays my parents just compliment my “calm”, “quiet” and “thoughtful” demeanor, when they practically molded me into this character they wanted. I don’t have any healthy coping mechanism either…