笑顔になれる瞬間って、なんだろう？って、答えられますか？ Yesterday, I drank a lot so I couldn’t write well my thoughts well. Haha. The reason why I think like the above is because I lost a smile on my face a few years ago. We saw one of my pictures which was taken 3 years ago with my best friend. She mentioned that I didn’t smile at all in the picture even though I was attempting to smile! We couldn’t recognize which person was the patient who suffered from a serious illness. My best friend had a big smile and looked healthier than me. I realized that when I was in a serious condition I totally forgot how to smile, and I didn’t have a smile on my face. She, who drank last night, noticed my change. The first time we met, I was a very friendly person, she said. But one day, she felt that I was building a tall wall for everyone, and no one was allowed to crash or enter. I didn’t notice that she noticed my changes. What I want to say is that a real smile is not that trying to but occurred naturally. 笑おうとおもって笑う笑顔は本物でなくて、自然にでるのが笑顔なんだな。って In this photo, she was smiling very naturally and expressed her joy and enjoyed her life. Her smile was the real smile and mine was the face one. 彼女は生きていることが楽しくて笑っている.それが本物 Come to think of it, when do I really smile without any intention? What makes me really happy? What does happiness mean? Can you answer this question? Eating my favorite food, drinking and chatting with my favorite person, and ?? What else? Huum? I can get warm feelings when others feel happy due to what I do for them, but does it request other’s devotion or just to fulfill my desire for approval? そんなこと考えながらも、１時半までのんでいたので、眠い頭で今日は１日資格試験のレクチャー。Learning about new fields can broaden myself every time.