Due to a mistake (not the first one...) of my doctors I had made an appointment for a CT Examination of the knot in my throat next to my thyroid, which is probably cancerous. Over a year the doctors said "Let us watch it, maybe it's nothing or not a big deal.". I wasn't sure and wanted a surgery or deeper Examination. Not possible. Now, a year later, after a graphical exam of my thyroid and the knot, one of the doctors said that nothing changed and it doesn't look good. Surprise surprise...not. The doctor I go regularly then prescribed me a CT of my throat and neck. This was the mistake. I now know I don't even need that and it wouldn't even do a thing. So the new doctors in the Medical Health center of radiology gave me another appointment for next week on friday. Still I don't know if I have cancer. Still there is no solution close. How are you supposed to live and work with the thought in mind that even working would be pointless with cancer ahead now? I feel the song I created today more than ever before... "Purgatory".