I feel really sad these days. I just feel like keep crying. I miss dad. I thought he would return, i thought everything would be fine again. I hate the fact that i keep feeling weak now. I am tired of being strong, i just wanna cry and cry. I have always tried my best to look tough even in worse situations, whenever i cried, i told myself that everything will be fine and it's ok. But maybe now i am just too tired of pretending...