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Daisy

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2019.04.02 00:25

Aquí hay una foto de mi abuela sosteniendo a mi padre en 197

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It's been a little over two months since I lost my beautiful grandmother. When I say the words "I lost my grandmother" out loud, they don't seem right, because a lost sock can be found again. This isn't just a missing sock. This is a huge hole in my gut, which will never, ever go away.


We spent my entire life together, from the time I was born up until a few weeks ago. When I was born, she was only 47. Since my mum was almost never in my life, she was the one who raised me. She did a damn good job, too. She’s the reason why I read and write so much. She was my mum. She was truly one of my best friends. She was my #1 teacher and support system. And I mean total, unconditional, "I’ll hide the body for you" type of support. That’s rare. That’s once in a lifetime!

I didn’t really want to write about this publicly. I didn’t want dozens of condolences to remind me repeatedly that she was gone. And I know this is not the place to grieve about her.

I’m supposed to talk about language learning and help people learn English. I didn’t think it would be useful for you to hear this. This is my shit. I didn’t want you to feel burdened with it, too.. But screw it.

I was struggling to write anything meaningful besides this,  so here I am.

My grandmother's leaving has reinforced something that I think we can all benefit from: the urgency of urgency. You don’t have time. You just, don’t.
Yes, you. Reading this. Go after the things and people you love. There literally is nothing else to do. If you’re looking for meaning, that’s it.

As a child, I always imagined that being born must feel a lot like waking up after having never gone to sleep.

So if dying and being born are really the same feeling, then I’m glad. I hope she’s already been born again and is happy. I hope she’s free.

I wonder if she remembers me. At least some part of her, wherever she is.. I know I will never forget her.
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  • Fernando Ingunza 2019.04.02 00:26

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    She is as beautiful as you😊
  • Wilson 2019.04.02 00:35

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    I apologize
  • LiberVanAlst 2019.04.02 00:41

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    Your feelings for her are very nice. My grandpa leaves this world in 2017, it's hard, but with time, I'm glad. He was feeling pain, so much. Your grandma sounds how a great person. (sorry if I don't know explain)
  • EMD 2019.04.02 00:55

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    @LiberVanAlst left👆
  • 2019.04.02 00:56

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    Beautiful memories and beautiful baby.
  • Ueliti 2019.04.02 01:06

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    Memory is eternity Yarek Suárez Your body is cold and your breath is no longer there, but you are alive. You die the day nobody remembers you, but you find eternity when you are inside the hearts of your loved ones. Every memorable experience, every time you make others love their lives, when your light enlightens others in the darkest moments. Now you are in their hearts... Now you are eternity. 😊🌷 Keep her in mind, because she's alive through you.
  • Éléonore 2019.04.02 01:08

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    Non, elle est morte ? Mais je n’en avais aucune idée ! Je suis vraiment navrée de l’apprendre!! I'm truly sorry!
  • Carlos 2019.04.02 01:34

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    I really liked your post...the way you wrote it.
  • Jase 2019.04.02 01:59

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    Her memory will never die and she's always with you. When my Nan died I used to wonder what I could do to honour her memory. Something maybe I could pass on to my kids so they could learn about the person she was, so I decided to learn how to Knit and garden. It seems silly but when I grow something or knit something, I feel I'm giving new life to my Nan for another year. It's hard to lose someone when they have been such a rock in your life. But remember she'll forever be proud of you and love you. Try and find something she loved, invest in it and she'll always be there in your heart.
  • EasY SpanisH 2019.04.02 02:11

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    💕💕
  • Karla 2019.04.02 02:23

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    Aquí hay una foto de mi abuela sosteniendo a mi padre en 1970.

    Aquí hay una foto de mi abuela cargando a mi padre, es de 1970.

  • Mark 2019.04.03 13:11

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    I am heartbroken for you, Daisy. I hope that you and your dad can remember the positives and have peace, though I can't imagine how difficult it must be at this moment. Take care of yourself please.
  • andresp_86 2019.05.23 16:19

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    Por lejos uno de las mejores publicaciones que he leido en cualquier red social. Tienes una hermosa manera de expresar tus ideas y no debe ser más que el resultado del tiempo y dedicación que te dieron tus seres queridos, los que están y los que no. Mantén viva la esperanza de que algún día verás a aquellos a quienes sientes muy fuerte su ausencia.

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